Progress Isn't Supposed to Look Pretty

A love letter from the in-between. The delay and the divine pivot.

Progress never had to look perfect or move at a certain speed. Yet somehow, I developed this belief that it did.

I have this funny habit of setting deadlines for myself, sometimes even announcing them with conviction, and then, like clockwork, sure as shit… life rearranges me.

Every. Single. Time.

In some cases, deadlines are necessary. But many times, the deadlines we set for ourselves are an illusion, since time doesn’t exist in God’s realm.

Deadlines are like placing an imaginary pressure cooker around yourself.

Take Radiant Reunion, for example. I mean, I am fairly certain that you didn't mark your calendar or set a notification to remind you that Radiant Reunion would be released on July 1st.

I set the deadline, I told you all when it would be released, and then almost immediately after, I was hit with the flu. Then I lost my voice.

Then I got an ear infection and lost my hearing!

How was I supposed to record an audio journey with no voice and no hearing?

The Universe surely was trying to tell me something.

The old me would’ve panicked.
I would have forced myself to meet that deadline, even if it meant dripping sweat onto my laptop at midnight.
I would have found a way to perform at the expense of my peace and my health.

But when I really sat with it, I realized:

My healing deserves more reverence than a to-do list.

In my case, the Universe wasn’t being subtle.
She was pulling the brakes on purpose.

Because the truth is…
I didn’t feel heard.
My body was asking me to listen.
I was living too much in my masculine. Trying to push through instead of being led.

Deadlines are masculine.
They serve a purpose. But when they suffocate the feminine, they become weapons of pressure.
I had a strategy. A plan. A launch date.

But in forcing it, I was muting the very energy I wanted to rise.

So I’ve been slowing down.
Letting the temple rebuild me, before I try to build it for anyone else.
Letting the medicine come through real, not rehearsed.

Radiant Reunion was never meant to be a product.
It’s a portal.
And portals don’t open on schedule, they open on sacred timing.

And somewhere in that softness… another vision started to rise to the surface.
A virtual temple space.
A community, built without pressure and held in devotion.
(Details are coming when the time feels right, not when the strategy says so.)

I’m not here to force healing into a content calendar.
I’m here to model what embodiment actually looks like. And sometimes that means missing your own deadline, so that we can meet our own truth.

Radiant Reunion is still coming. It’s more potent now than it would’ve ever been, and it will be worth every second of the wait.

If you’re already on the waitlist, thank you.
If you’re not, the link is below. You’ll get an exclusive regulation audio and access to our integration space on Facebook the moment you join.

And here’s a reminder:
Progress doesn’t have to look pretty.
We can pivot with presence. And sometimes, delay is divine protection.

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The Temple Doors Are Open

Radiant Reunion is a 5-day guided somatic experience designed to bring you back to the girl you used to be… before the world told her to quiet down and be easy.

It’s not about healing harder.
It’s about remembering who you were before the survival kicked in.

🎧 Downloadable. Body-based. Ritual-led.
Available soon!

Here’s what you’ll receive immediately upon joining the waitlist (free to join the waitlist):
➡A daily regulation practice to anchor your nervous system
➡Access to a private Facebook Temple to integrate and be witnessed

The entire journey will include:

- Downloadable daily audio rituals plus an integration worksheet with integration homework (one day grace between journeys)
- A daily practice to ground and regulate you
- A Conscious Grieving Workshop to release what’s no longer yours
- A private Facebook temple for integration and witnessing

You don’t have to do this perfectly.
You just have to feel ready to feel again.
The Reunion begins soon.